Remember the day you were saved how your mind and heart were flooded with so many thoughts on seemingly every level? One major thought line was the parade of your sins that the Holy Spirit brought to your mind and your only thought was to cry for mercy. The things that were once cherished had become a dung heap, repulsive and disgusting. Happy were you to freely confess your many sins to the Gracious Lord who brought mercy, forgiveness, and cleansing. There was no holding back, everything, every sin was on the table, your heart was laid bare, your "fig leaves" were burned up and joy overtook the depression of your sins when they were finally removed. Oh what a day that was. It was a day of real repentance, real faith, real communion with the Triune God. Since that time has not the Holy Spirit been diligent to point out current sins? Don't we mourn the fact that we have found another occasion to rebel against our Lord, even if only for a moment? Does He allow us a rejuvenated fig leaf? Do we really believe that we can hide from His eyes? Has our heart returned to it's old ways of deceit, trying to convince the Lord that we didn't do the thing that we were caught 'red-handed' doing? Sad would be this day. For the genuine believer it will gain him a trip to his Father's wood shed, and deservedly so. But even this He will turn to a blessing in the long run that we may once again bow in awe at His Lovingkindness for His children and know afresh of His Mercy, Love, and Forgiveness.
"Afresh, precious, precious Jesus, I resign this body to You, for doing or suffering, for living or dying. Will You accept it? Will You use me for Your glory more than heretofore, that You may have some little return for all the benefits You have done to me? Oh, do grant this request; my heart longs for it, my spirit pleads for it; and "if You will, You can." You know the hot temptation of which I am the subject. Bring Your glory out of it, and keep me from the evil, and it shall be well." - Ruth Bryan